Monday, September 3, 2007

Struggling with selfishness

"It is by following Christ, renouncing themselves, and taking up their crosses that spouses will be able to "receive" the original meaning of marriage and live it with the help of Christ."

This weekend I took our 3 girls to our hometown to visit family. My husband stayed behind to participate in his Fantasy Football draft. I was perfectly fine with him staying home while I traveled with the girls. I became irritated though because once I returned home, I was really hoping to get to sleep a little later and that my husband would get up with the girls.

I felt like since he had only had to take care of himself all weekend (and the dog) that he would volunteer to do it. What I didn't take into account was that he had done many things around the house while I was gone: continued working on our office floor that he's putting in, changed the air filters, did laundry and dishes, and put up a decoration that I had purchased among a few others.

In an effort to pray about and remove my anger and disappointment I came across the above statement from the Catechism of the Catholic Church (1615). I realized that I was being really selfish and wanting him to take on something else just because I was tired. It's not like he wasn't contributing to the family at all. He was and was actually getting quite a lot accomplished while we were gone.

It's so easy to forget about others and think only about ourselves. I was so exhausted by the time we got back from our trip that I just wanted someone else to take over. What I should have done is prayed to God for renewed strength and dedication to care for my family.

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